Ever since I knew the shape of a football I was a Ranger. Rangers have been the dominant force in my life, indeed it has shaped my life from the friends I have, to the woman I have had in my life and the woman I have now. I have taught my children what it means to be a Ranger, I have made career sacrifices, I have spent every penny and loaned more to follow my heroes. I have been through the thick and thin like us all for many years. I am now really struggling with this. I know to some it is only a game of football but to me it's my life. I truly believe I am going into depression. I really don't want to be the laughing stop anymore. Personally I don't often post on here but follow this site relentlessly. I don't know what I am trying to say but I am at the moment truely lost. I am pleading with my heart for anyone who is a Ranger who can and is lucky enough to have the resources to help my club and my ailing life to step up. My god if I won that £160 million all those years back I would put every penny into my club. I am sorry to post this but I am truely, truely devastated.